Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Goodbye Old Crush

Hi All.

Goodbye old crush. Goodbye for good.
I've turned to 29 years old this year and I wish I put an end to this old crush stuff.
Sorry RB cause I need a space to let all this memories come out and just flow away.

I known him since I'm in highschool. SGGS time. *phiew*
I known him through my twin sister.

I bet all my friends knew our story. How I am so fond of him. How I like to stalk him.
I kept all stuff that remind me of him *I'm so stupid that time*

We were good friends. we shares same interest in skateboarding *I don't skate ok*, breakdance. he knew I love Simple Plan. *haish*

And I know he has a girlfriend.

After I went to Matriculation college, did my degree in Petroleum. even tough I did have a boyfriend, but with him, hahaha he just can make me smile through out the day.

I been a date with him just once and the last date ever. I thought It was a date. but. haha he just kept telling me bout his girlfriend problem.

So now, present time. what I know about him.

Somehow, he manage to contact me through We Chat apps. but that time I'm already with RB.

As for me, I'm happy cause my old friend just remembered me. He knew me and I knew him.

this is the funny part. he asked me to be his girlfriend and planning to get married. I was like *rolling my eyes*. So sudden huh??

He said he was stupid to just ignore my feelings that old time. haha *lame*

but after 2-3 days, I finally figured out that HE ACTUALLY HAVE BEEN MARRIED!!

gosh. that time I was so sad. I don't know why. Maybe cause he was my first crush. (Raul/Haris is just cinta monyet).

Luckily that was just a moment. He suddenly go MIA for no reason.

And TODAY...

He just too much.

He keep telling me that he has a marriage problem. He not happy with his wife. They not been together. What they did they just faking it.

So at first I was kind of believe but. duhhh... I take a short visit to his Facebook page and guess what, last two days, his wife is talking to him. very romantic. even he did respond to her.

So, am I not believing my own eyes. Cha in you are so psycho.

And I let my feeling out at We Chat moments. and he mad at me. hahahahahahha

But I said sorry to him personally. I said I don't believe him cause every proof I found, he seems happy with his wife.

Now I realise why people said, don't love someone to much, cause in the end, he will be someone you hate so much.

I don't really hate him, but I just don't want to be part of his life anymore. I don't want to listen to his bullshits. I don't wanna know how he's doing in his life. I don't wanna know a thing bout him.

To you my first love --->> Mohamad Shahril Mansor, finally I can let you go. finally after 29 years old.

I pray for your happiness. But please, respect my life, my decision.

You are just missed your 25 minutes man!.

Goodbye old crush.

p/s:- writing this post after so hard figured out my old username and password for blogpost. =) Every body now seems to left blogging.

Thanks for reading. I'm happy with RB. and Insha Allah everything will be smooth. we just need time and space to arrange everything.